4.07.2009

a woman after the heart of God...

They say there is a young lady in New Haven who is beloved of that almighty Being, who made and rules the world, and that there are certain seasons in which this great Being, in some way or other invisible, comes to her and fills her mind with exceeding sweet delight, and that she hardly cares for anything, except to meditate on him--that she expects after a while to be received up where he is, to be raised up out of the world and caught up into heaven; being assured that he loves her too well to let her remain at a distance from him always.

There she is to dwell with him, and to be ravished with his love and delight forever. Therefore, if you present all the world before her, with the richest of its treasures, she disregards it and cares not for it, and is unmindful of any pain or affliction. She has a strange sweetness in her mind, and singular purity in her affections; is most just and conscientious in all her actions; and you could not persuade her to do anything wrong or sinful, if you would give her all the world, lest she should offend this great Being.

She is of a wonderful sweetness, calmness and universal benevolence of mind; especially after those seasons in which this great God has manifested himself to her mind. She will sometimes go about from place to place, singing sweetly; and seems to be always full of joy and pleasure; and no one knows for what.

She loves to be alone, and to wander in the fields and on the mountains, and seems to have someone invisible always conversing with her.

-Jonathan Edwards speaking about his wife.

I hope that one day Jeremy will be able to say of me what Jonathan Edwards was able to say of his wife. She was a woman that was so caught up in the very presence of God that she would tend to wander about by herself, yet always seemed to be conversing with someone. Now, to some this may seem strange. But when you are so wrapped up in conversation with someone and so in awe and amazement of that person, you constantly want to be before them. You want to converse with them, speak about them, and be in constant fellowship with them. Oh, how I long to have a heart like this toward my Lord. To see Him in all aspects of life, to experience Him through others, and to be consistently focused on Him. This is my prayer today...